I’ve been struggling a lot with my weight loss in these last six months since my wedding, as many of you know. After losing 118 pounds, I’m lucky to say I only ended up gaining maybe 6-8 pounds back or so (it fluctuated a lot), but I’ve kind of been holding steady there. I want to re-lose those extra pounds, then lose an additional 20-ish (ultimate goal is to lose 140), but I’ve just been stuck. I would get back on track with my food logging and exercising for a few days, then fall WAY off the wagon for the weekends… then rinse and repeat… every week for the last few months. It’s been exhausting and frustrating, and while I’m glad I really haven’t gained any more than those eight pounds, I REALLY don’t want to maintain where I am and that’s what I’ve been doing for half a year now. My weight loss journey is not yet complete and I refuse to settle at where I am. I have come way too far and worked too hard to settle.
Anyway, something seemed to really click in the last week or so. Logging my food and staying within my calorie goal has come back naturally to me now. It used to be so easy for me to stay within my guidelines before, but it had started to feel so HARD these past six months. Now, I feel how I used to feel; I feel motivated and proud. I work hard to make healthy choices and stay under my calories for the day. I don’t give in easily, and my willpower has come back. Every day isn’t perfect, but I’m getting back to where I used to – and NEED – to be.
The first two years of this journey were ANYTHING but easy…. but I felt so motivated, and I logged my food with ease. I made healthy choices and had a strong will. After the wedding and honeymoon eating disasters though (which I don’t regret – once in a lifetime, hello!), it became harder to resist and harder to make the good choices. Over the past six months, some days I would do perfectly but others were a disaster. I’m so glad that I am back on track and re-motivated to lose the rest of this weight. In fact, I lost 1.6 pounds last week! I weighed in at 157.2 yesterday. I’m now only 5.2 pounds away from my lowest weight of 152.
It’s daunting to realize that this will be an ongoing battle for the rest of my life, but being healthy? So worth it.
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